Have you ever had those moments in which you're staring into pure nothingness, and that nothingness seems to be the most peaceful little piece of heaven you've had all day...or maybe all week...maybe even all month?
That nothing gives you an escape from all the clutter in your head things that you really don't wanna think about but you do anyways because you're tired of thinking of yourself as a procrastinator, of saying "I'll just think about it later..." a phrase that just gives you temporary satisfaction. You think about it because if you don't then you feel like people think you don't care when you actually do, and you do care a lot but you're just not good at showing your emotions.
During those few seconds of staring into deep space, of resting your eyes without actually closing them you imagine all sorts of things, mostly happy things. Things that you know won't happen in a very long time and you know they shouldn't happen for a very long time but you can't help and wish that you could fast foward through all the lessons, the mistakes, the choices you had to make to get there. And you wish this because you don't wanna have to deal with it anymore, you just want to enjoy a carefree life, you want to enjoy being older and independent and you want to find out what's like to have all the things you promised yourself you'd have.
You look into space to get away from the idea that you seem to be taking a different road than all those around you. You want to get away from the idea that you feel like it is time to slowly say goodbye to those you consider friends but sometimes feel like acquaintances, and you look into space to forget that maybe it is your fault that you feel this way but then think that it isn't.
And during those last few seconds before you realize that you're staring into thin air you take a deep breath and you gain courage to go back to reality, to all those cool and the not so cool things that make up your day.

And then puuuff the moments gone, but you feel different, you feel like you soul has rested, like you can and will get through the day because you are that awesome!