It seems like I haven't been keeping up with blogger lately, sorry about that...to that one or two of you who read it. I'll try to write more often from now on.
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, mostly about the past. That stubborn past who doesn't let you advance to your future. I can't help to think about all the people who I wish were with me right now, those who I've felt some type of connection with along my short path through this life. I think about them all the time and wonder if they do the same. And sometimes I really get angry with myself because I don't want to keep thinking about the things that "were." I know very deeply within me that things won't ever be the same; characters change, roads change, minds change...that's just how it is...and I'm fine with that, I just wish I didn't miss a lot of things. I do realize, however, that I'm extremely lucky to miss people and things, because it means that I've done something right along the way.
Something kind of funny happened yesterday. I was out in the town with my family and my dad grabbed one of those free magazines, the ones who aren't really magazines but more of advertisements. In it, I found the "horoscope" section and started reading my moms out loud so she could hear hers; we've always sort of believed in them...hoping the good ones are actually true. Anyways, I read hers and then read mine in silence and something in it fit perfectly with what I'm going through. It vaguely ran along the lines of "You've got to let go of the past, it isn't what you represent anymore...you've got to move on" And so, that was the perfect push that I needed to know that I need to start letting go of what I can't hold on to anymore. I need to start looking ahead into my new life and meet with excitement whatever it is to come, while keeping a place in my heart for all those who are truly meant to be there.
So, yeah....I guess this was the sort of emotional post I hadn't done in quite a while but I needed to do it.
I hope all of you are doing well, the weekend's coming up so that's something to look foward to!
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, mostly about the past. That stubborn past who doesn't let you advance to your future. I can't help to think about all the people who I wish were with me right now, those who I've felt some type of connection with along my short path through this life. I think about them all the time and wonder if they do the same. And sometimes I really get angry with myself because I don't want to keep thinking about the things that "were." I know very deeply within me that things won't ever be the same; characters change, roads change, minds change...that's just how it is...and I'm fine with that, I just wish I didn't miss a lot of things. I do realize, however, that I'm extremely lucky to miss people and things, because it means that I've done something right along the way.
Something kind of funny happened yesterday. I was out in the town with my family and my dad grabbed one of those free magazines, the ones who aren't really magazines but more of advertisements. In it, I found the "horoscope" section and started reading my moms out loud so she could hear hers; we've always sort of believed in them...hoping the good ones are actually true. Anyways, I read hers and then read mine in silence and something in it fit perfectly with what I'm going through. It vaguely ran along the lines of "You've got to let go of the past, it isn't what you represent anymore...you've got to move on" And so, that was the perfect push that I needed to know that I need to start letting go of what I can't hold on to anymore. I need to start looking ahead into my new life and meet with excitement whatever it is to come, while keeping a place in my heart for all those who are truly meant to be there.
So, yeah....I guess this was the sort of emotional post I hadn't done in quite a while but I needed to do it.
I hope all of you are doing well, the weekend's coming up so that's something to look foward to!
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Ahh, the past. I have tried several times letting go of the past, but its always been hard. Letting go of the past is letting go of memories, some are good and some are bad I enjoy both. But for some reason I only keep one and it haunts my dreams, Its very unfortunate. Your Horoscope said it doesn't represent you,true but it's probably made you the person you are now. I know my past has made me who I am now :)
Yes, i totally agree with you! it is very hard to get rid of those memories we desperately want to get rid of! And you are correct, it is thanks to my past that I am who I am now...i'm thankful for that! There are just some unnecessary things i keep on carrying around :S